adjusting

in on year my attitude towards school has changed completely. there is nothing to motivate me. cool looking books, jaw dropping information, smart teachers, class discussions, competition nothing works. that i find strange because i spent 4 years of my life living by these values. somehow i resent school for not being a part of stupid young, drunken stupor stuff.
i left home thinking that school, education in general, is my ticket out. it was that or marrying rich. now things are not as clear as they were at age 19. strange again, ha?
so now i wonder what i am doing again complicating my life for one more year. another thing i can't understand is how i was able to learn tons of pages in just a few days - because now it seems impossible to remember stuff by cleverly organized bullets. there was a time when i actually liked going to bcu, but it seems so far away.
maybe one skill learnt means loosing another. it could be the limited space theory. ok, limited brain. no, to be more exact the age aquired stupidity theory.